⬤ - BASIC INFORMATION.

birth name. Yoo Sihyun kr 유미리 other name(s). sih, hyunie birth. June 13th, 2002 (8:33pm) Goyang-Si, South Korea species. human ethnicity. south korean nationality. south korean languages. Korean (Native), English (Fluent), chicken clucking (conversational) gender/pronouns. 「 he/him 」cis-male orientation. bisexual relationship status. singleoccupation. Independent Bassist stand in bassist for indie bands. Music Composer contributes to composing music for the bands he plays for. Biohazard Cleaner main job now that he has gotten enough certifications. class. upper class hometown. Seoul, South Korea education. graduated high school, currently taking 4 years of Chemistry at SNU. (started March 2025)family. yoo minsu father retired performer, now ice skating guide and teacher for beginners. im saebom mother retired performer, suffered injury while performing. pets. four silkie chickens named honk, honk honk, honk honk honk and honk honk honk honk. current residence. One room single apartment, a little outside of Seoul, seventh floor.

⬤ - psyche.

zodiac. water horse astrology. ☼ Gemini, ☾ Cancer, ⇡ Capricorn mbti. INFJ alignment. Neutral Evil enneagram. 4w5 tarot. The moon, the hanged man love language(s). Words of Affirmation, Physical Touch virtue(s). Self-Reflection vice(s). Pessimismpositive. creative, empathetic, introspective, resilient, humorous, observant, loyal, passionate, supportive, artistic, caring, adaptable, determined, protective, insightful likes. neon colours, especially green and pink. Video games, LEGO, sudoku, watching commentary on YouTube videos and streams, Cold weather, especially snow. chickens. Reality TV.negative. anxious, manipulative, insecure, withdrawn, indecisive, self-critical, impulsive, moody, avoidant, fearful, guilty, sarcastic, stubborn, dependent, guarded dislikes. musicals. singing, especially in front of an audience. Specific textures like sandpaper or silk. Loud crowds, feeling ignored, pressure to confront, being misunderstood, expectations, rejection, conflicts, commitment.interests. Music (heavy metal, nu metal, and deathcore), Watching movies (especially melancholic films), Journaling, Playing video games (MMO games), Writing (poetry, short stories, or reflective pieces), spending time in nature (camping and hiking), Playing bass guitar, Lego, and sudoku, cleaning, watching commentary YouTube videos and streams, and caring for his chickens.

×̷̷͜×̷ INSPIRATIONS : ×̷̷͜×̷ --- ayaka from genshin impact, Kaworu Nagisa from Neon Genesis Evangelion, Dazai Osamu from Bungou Stray Dogs, Ren Honjo from NANA, Haru Yoshida from My Little Monster, Park Sunghoon of ENHYPEN

habits. Regular drinking to numb emotional pain and anxiety. Overthinking/Constant Worrying. Isolating himself from social situations to avoid rejection or judgment. Negative self-talk, criticising himself with thoughts like "I'm not worth it" or "I'll never be good enough." Anxious gestures, such as rubbing his forehead to self-soothe. Fidgeting, playing with jewellery, tapping his foot, or adopting a closed-off posture. Procrastination, especially with tasks requiring emotional vulnerability or action. Seeking validation from others through social media or through conversation often leads to more insecurity when it's unmet. Avoiding eye contact due to feelings of inadequacy or shame, meaning he frequently looks down or off to the side during conversation. Biting lips, chewing on objects, or running fingers through hair are subconscious habits when deeply thought or anxious—constantly checking his phone. When stressed, angry, or frustrated, he tenses his jaw or clenches his teeth, covering his mouth or face. Binge-watching media to numb his own emotions.speech. Hesitation, uncertainty, and self-deprecation. Sihyun often speaks quietly, with a soft-spoken tone and short, curt responses that reflect his reluctance to engage deeply or be vulnerable. He avoids direct emotional expression, deflecting conversations with humour or sarcasm, and frequently apologises, even when unnecessary. His tone can be flat or monotone, especially when discussing personal topics or reflecting his numbness. He might use nihilistic or dark language to express his disillusionment with life. In moments of anxiety, he may ramble or speak in fragmented sentences.

⬤ - psychical.

visage. diamond symmetrical face shape with defined features, including high cheekbones and a well-structured jawline. His eyes are large and almond-shaped. he also has strong and thick eyebrows hair. often changing in colour and length, from darker shades like black and brown to lighter hues like platinum blonde. build. lean and athletic build. Standing at about 181 cm (5’11”), he has a tall and slender frame, with a proportionate body. His posture is often straight and confident, although he tends to slouch when he is uncomfortable and anxious. Though not overly muscular, his physique is toned and athletic.notable features. three moles, one on his nose, one under his eye and one on the corner of his lip. face claim. Park Sung-hoon (박성훈) of ENHYPENstyle. In casual settings, he can be seen wearing simple outfits, such as oversized sweaters, fitted jeans, or comfortable streetwear —he absolutely loves his tracksuits. He often accessorises with hats, necklaces, and rings. In more formal settings, he is usually seen wearing chic, contemporary, and sometimes edgy clothing, gravitating towards outfits that are sleek and refined, often incorporating clean lines and minimalist design to highlight his tall and lean figure. scent Maison Margiela Replica by the Fireplace ×̷̷͜×̷ --- Top notes are Cloves, Pink Pepper and Orange Blossom; middle notes are Chestnut, Guaiac Wood and Juniper; base notes are Vanilla, Peru Balsam and Cashmeran

⬤ - BACKGROUND STORY.

Yoo Sihyun was the first child born into the Yoo household. As a result, he grew up with undivided love, attention, and affection. The young boy loved all the attention he received because of it, almost as if he would do anything to receive that affection. What more could you want in life? In addition to this, he grew accustomed to having things almost always go his way, with his actions being excused if they crossed the line—that’s basically how Sihyun grew up.To get ahead in life, he had to act unethically sometimes to get his way, and it didn’t bother him whenever he got caught. He was usually forgiven, and the most consequences he suffered were being talked down to or looked down on, but at the end of the day, he was okay, excuses were enough and “Oh, he’s just a boy” dismissed his ability to gain any proper consequences of his actions—sure, but that was it. It made him feel invincible. Furthermore, it made him good at guilt-tripping and manipulating others to do what he wanted from a very young age. It doesn’t come as a surprise that he was as spoiled as he was. It started to build up this incredibly annoying person for those who saw past his fake persona. A smile and a little nod, doing the most important parts to keep people around him satisfied, was all he needed to do.Of course, people had expectations of him, but he never had to fully fulfil them. Mischief and boredom took control whenever he didn’t get the attention he wanted. Consequently, following the values and wants of his parents, he grew up with the expectations of carrying on the family name. He tried his best academically, but the expectations put pressure on him and influenced the decisions he made.Following in his parents' footsteps, he was trained to compete in the Olympics in ice skating, and it was during high school that this interest blossomed into a career choice. For years, he had been training with his parents, and eventually was transferred to a professional coach. Sihyun loved ice and created his own piece of art through his movements. However, no one could have foreseen what would happen to him. His grades started to slip, and he began staying out later; he started getting into trouble. He tried to call out for help, but it didn’t work. In the end, he discovered that if he stopped complaining and always did what he was told, they wouldn’t get so bothered with him.

×̷̷͜×̷ CONTENT WARNING : ×̷̷͜×̷ --- the content below has mentions of sexual abuse and victim blaming. Read at your own discretion.

⬤ - IN DEPT.

Sihyun looked up to his coaches a lot, and with the type of parents that he had, there were not too many coaches in his area who were “good enough” for him, who could push him to the limit and teach him the best.The first troublesome encounter with his ice skating coach, whom he had been working with for two years, occurred when he was sixteen. He had built immersive trust; the naive teenager viewed them as an idol, a god. The number of bad encounters just grew the more classes he took. The punishments and yelling he would receive from this figure for each mistake he made slowly started to damage him. It tore him down from the inside, and the worst part was that Sihyun blamed himself for everything that was done to him.Everyone knows the story of the boy who cried wolf, so did it come as a surprise when Sihyun tried to confess what his coach was doing to him, only to be dismissed and not listened to? It was just another excuse to get out of another hobby, to get attention from everyone again. Insecurities began to grow, and his tendencies to manipulate and guilt others into getting his way faded. He started to apologise more for his actions, for showing emotions, and for his accomplishments. The biggest change that the family noticed was that he rarely said no anymore; he would do what was asked of him. Something he once loved and had a great passion for started to become something he wanted to avoid, something that brought him fear.

×̷̷͜×̷ CONTENT WARNING : ×̷̷͜×̷ --- the content below has mentions of sexual abuse, suicidal ideology, alcoholism and victim blaming. Read at your own discretion.

⬤ - HEADCANONS AND FACTS.

mental. Trapped in a cycle of self-doubt, trauma, and addiction, struggling to find self-worth after traumatising events growing up. He often feels unworthy and believes he’s always second-best, struggling to believe in his potential. Despite all this, it leaves him feeling like just another lost person, caught between a desire for redemption and a belief that nothing will ever change.interests. He has difficulty talking about his interests and favourite media to strangers and friends, including music. Showing what he enjoys in his free time usually takes him a while to confess to, and it's rare to get him comfortable enough to share it with people, due to how others have talked down to his abilities and interests in the past. He needs excessive reassurance that it's okay to show his interests.social abilities. He spends a lot of time watching TV Shows and Movies, stuck in a pessimistic, nihilistic worldview, seeking out depressing stories that try to evoke emotions amidst his emotional numbness. He’s not a very social person and is rarely invited to group gatherings and events because he has often rejected them in the past. When he does end up in a conversation with someone, it's usually about television.emotions. his emotions are often dismissed and overlooked, causing him to latch out when it gets too much.biohazard cleaning. Sihyun uses cleaning as a way to disassociate from the rest of the world when it becomes difficult. Throughout the past two years, after watching the TV Show "Move to Heaven", he has applied and now has a side job as a biohazard cleaner. Currently, he’s taking certifications so that he can take on heavier jobs.journal. He writes a journal, and he used to write about people's behaviours and analyse them rather than talking about his day. However, recently, when his emotions are building up, he uses his journal to try to put words to his feelings and doodle, working up the courage to show his journal to people who are special to him, as they often express to him that he tends to close himself off.cold hug from nature. He feels the most relaxed when he’s lying on the ground in the snow, being given a big, cold hug from nature. Lying down on the ground/floor also comforts him. It’s how he calms down during his anxiety attacks and overly depressive periods in his life.alcoholism. Alcoholism serves as a way to numb his anxiety and depression. However, it only deepens his sense of isolation and helplessness. To deal with the trauma that his coach put him through, and how no one believed him when he reached out for help, he developed an issue with alcohol. He relapses often, especially during his worst moments, and it makes him unable to stay sober for weeks, months, maybe even years at a time.chicken dad. he currently owns 4 chickens, honk, honk x 2, honk x 3 and honk x 4 (names still undecided). They're of the silkie chicken breed, and have their own little coup in his spare bedroom.random info. He was conceived through IVF due to his parents' difficulty getting children, and he also ate his twin in the womb.playlist. Genres like nu-metal, deathcore, heavy metal, alternative metal, and emo-core fill most of his daily listening time. Enjoying intense, raw, emotionally charged, and aggressive sound that matches his inner turmoil and struggles with self-worth. Lyrics about pain, alienation, and defiance. A need for intensity and an outlet for anger, sadness, and the existential dread he feels. Bands found on his playlist are BABYMETAL, Bad Omen, Sleep Token, Crystal Lake, Currents, Dir En Grey, I Prevail, Knocked Loose, and Lorna Shore.